Why I’ve Blogged

 

“It’s important to let your feeling be known  Your so quiet, so I’m giving you this journal for your twelvth birthday.   Write your feelings down, create something based on your feeling.” __Alicia, Derek’s mom 

This was the start, my inspiration, my feelings, all started from that first journal thirty-one years ago.   For me it’s been artistic creation of my mind through my feelings.  Journaling has been a healing force for as long as I can remember.  My early journaling has much imagination.  I still live in imagination much of my life, so I tried to imagine what it would be like for me without the journaling process which I’ve been doing since I was twelve.

                                     

                                   Like flight being taken away from an eagle…

                                                      Such would be me.

                                    Like the power to manipulate words

                                            being taken away from a poet…

Such would be me.

Like the refusal of a canvas to accept paint from an artist…

Such would be me.

The essay of assisting you in understanding the severity of my loss

Well, let’s suffice it to say…

The depth of that realm is simply too vast.

How long would the aches of not having that outlet last?

I will go on…

However,

How bright would my flame be?

My glow would dim, but to what degree?

The respect that I show for myself…

Would continue

The good deeds that I do for others…

Would continue

The dreams that I have …

Would continue

The partner that the Lord  put in my path will be given my all.

Walking next to him…would I stand as tall?

If I didn’t have a place to write these words, I don’t think I could last

I would struggle to hold onto my grace…

While lying in the dark.

Everything would be forgotten…maybe this is my medicine

To forget…

maybe that would be the ultimate sin.

To have not recorded my word

The first journal my mother gave me was

To aid in my survival

This makes me begin to smile.

This is what life would be like

Without my written word.

                                                     By: Derek 

Why do I blog?  Because it helps my heart to heal.  Much of the same reasons I journal. I have a picture in my head of what blogging is for me.  It’s a healing garden of my mind, it helps me nurture what is sacred.  It gives voice to my spirit through my words and my feeling.

 Every day we all have the possiblity to tap into our soul’s beautiful artistic palette through artistic expression and imagination.  I’ve enjoyed these thirty-one years of a creative journey, this journey of me.   This journey that one day will lead me home.

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~ by deveil on JulyUTCb000000amTue, 19 Jul 2011 09:17:28 +000011 19, 2007.

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  1. I am very very glad you blog.

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